Title: Mind Games
Rating: R (for language... for now, at least.)
Pairings: Seifer/Zell (FFVIII)
Genre: humour, romance, action
Disclaimers: standard disclaimers apply, unfortunately.
Summary: It's been four years since the war, and friendships have dissipated. Yet, some have become even closer. A story about how Zell and Seifer cope with feelings they never had time to realize when they were young.
Word Count: 5,398/25,131 (chapter/total)
Notes: I'm just posting this here for archiving purposes. I've been posting it over at seiferzell for a few months now. I won't do it all at once, and spam up people's friend-pages.
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( four )

Title: Nonpareil
Rating: PG
Pairings: Reita/Uruha (Gazette)
Genre: romance, angst, AU
Disclaimers: standard disclaimers apply, unfortunately.
Summary: "Will you miss me when I'm gone?"
Word Count: 1,129
Notes: ohshit, I wrote Gazette fanfic again. this is a sequel/side piece/whatever to Human Error, which I wrote forever and a day ago and never really planned to continue in any way, but here it is. it's pretty short. if you thought that one was too sad, you might want to pass this one over, just a warning.


( he closed his eyes. )

Title: Mind Games
Rating: R (for language... for now, at least.)
Pairings: Seifer/Zell (FFVIII)
Genre: humour, romance, action
Disclaimers: standard disclaimers apply, unfortunately.
Summary: It's been four years since the war, and friendships have dissipated. Yet, some have become even closer. A story about how Zell and Seifer cope with feelings they never had time to realize when they were young.
Word Count: 6,020/19,733 (chapter/total)
Notes: I'm just posting this here for archiving purposes. I've been posting it over at seiferzell for a few months now. I won't do it all at once, and spam up people's friend-pages.
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( three )

Title: Mind Games (or: How Seifer's Reputation Went To Shit)
Rating: R (for language... for now, at least.)
Pairings: Seifer/Zell (FFVIII)
Genre: humour, romance, action
Disclaimers: standard disclaimers apply, unfortunately.
Summary: It's been four years since the war, and friendships have dissipated. Yet, some have become even closer. A story about how Zell and Seifer cope with feelings they never had time to realize when they were young.
Word Count: 7,720/13,713 (chapter/total)
Notes: I'm just posting this here for archiving purposes. I've been posting it over at seiferzell for a few months now. I won't do it all at once, and spam up people's friend-pages.
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( part two )

Title: Mind Games (or: How Seifer's Reputation Went To Shit)
Rating: R (for language... for now, at least.)
Pairings: Seifer/Zell (FFVIII)
Genre: humour, romance, action
Disclaimers: standard disclaimers apply, unfortunately.
Summary: It's been four years since the war, and friendships have dissipated. Yet, some have become even closer. A story about how Zell and Seifer cope with feelings they never had time to realize when they were young.
Word Count: 5,993/5,993 (chapter/total)
Notes: I'm just posting this here for archiving purposes. I've been posting it over at seiferzell for a few months now. I won't do it all at once, and spam up people's friend-pages.


( chapter one. )

word count:1,766
rating: PG-13 for language
pairing/fandom: Zell/Squall if you squint... Seifer/Squall if you really squint (FFVIII)
summary: Just because Squall is quiet doesn't mean Zell can't hear what he's saying. set at the very beginning of the game, Zell POV.


( I suspect )

word count: 1,268
rating: PG-13 for language
pairing/fandom: Jay/Mike if you squint (Hank Thompson trilogy)
summary: a snippet of the boys' lives set post-book. who was really affected by Hank's presence?
notes: something I just felt like writing, it's sort of like an experiment.


( and I was made for him. )

Title: E Mare
Chapter: 2/14
Rating: R (subject to change)
Genre: AU (boarding school), humor, romance
Warnings: swearing (subject to change)
Bands/Pairings: Uruha/Aoi, others to come
Disclaimers: standard disclaimers apply, unfortunately.
Summary: I was having a dream, the same dream I always had. A dream about a warm place, a clean place with salty ocean air and sunlight that made the inside of my eyelids glow golden. And he's here. I know his voice. I know his soft hands holding mine. But I don't know his face, because I always wake up before I see it. (Aoi POV)
Word Count: 3,432/7,979 (chapter/total)
Notes: the first part of this chapter is somewhat rough, too. you can tell where I started revising it and rewriting parts. "E Mare" means "from the sea" in latin.


( chapter two. )

Title: E Mare
Chapter: 1/14
Rating: R (subject to change)
Genre: AU (boarding school), humor, romance
Warnings: swearing (subject to change)
Bands/Pairings: Uruha/Aoi, others to come
Disclaimers: standard disclaimers apply, unfortunately.
Summary: I was having a dream, the same dream I always had. A dream about a warm place, a clean place with salty ocean air and sunlight that made the inside of my eyelids glow golden. And he's here. I know his voice. I know his soft hands holding mine. But I don't know his face, because I always wake up before I see it. (Aoi POV)
Word Count: 4,547/4,547 (chapter/total)
Notes: I'm really anxious about this fic. it's something I've been working on for a while. and this is the original first chapter, it hasn't been revised since I first wrote it (in july of 06 >_>) so it kind of sucks compared to the rest of the fic. "E Mare" means "from the sea" in latin.


( chapter one. )

Title: 縁 (En)
Chapter: prologue/?
Rating: R (subject to change)
Genre: AU, romance
Warnings: none (subject to change)
Bands/Pairings: Reita/Ruki
Disclaimers: standard disclaimers apply, unfortunately.
Summary: 縁 (En): fate, destiny (esp. as a mysterious force that binds two people together,) an unbreakable karmic link.
Word Count: 5,044/5,044 (chapter/total)
Notes: I should warn you in advance, this fic is a bit of a departure from what I would normally write. but please read the veritable novel of an AN at the end of the chapter.



( prologue. )

hi guys

it's me

that is, dani, a.k.a. suckmycawk.

name change, how retro :D

anyhow. the new name is sani. pretty fab. however, I've been suckmycawk for so long that this may take some getting used to. in the morning when I am properly awake, this might seem a little clearer to me.

Title: Bug
Chapter: 10/10
Rating: R
Genre: AU, romance
Warnings: sexual content
Bands/Pairings: Reita/Ruki, Ruki/Aoi (one-sided), Uruha/Aoi [Gazette]
Disclaimers: standard disclaimers apply, unfortunately.
Summary: Ruki is a man of many obsessions. After a fateful meeting with a stranger in a club, a series of events shows him that one obsession could destroy him - while another just might save him... (Ruki POV)
Word Count: 2,870/40,595 (chapter/total)
Notes: last chapter! plus omake. :D

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( final chapter. )

Title: Bug
Chapter: 8.5/10
Rating: R (subject to change)
Genre: AU, romance
Warnings: sexual content
Bands/Pairings: Reita/Ruki, Ruki/Aoi (one-sided), Uruha/Aoi [Gazette]
Disclaimers: standard disclaimers apply, unfortunately.
Summary: Ruki is a man of many obsessions. After a fateful meeting with a stranger in a club, a series of events shows him that one obsession could destroy him - while another just might save him... (Ruki POV)
Word Count: 5,755/37,725 (chapter/total)
Notes: so it's the porn I cut out of chapter nine. which turned out to be the longest chapter in this story =__= and even after I cut tons of stuff out. man. dedicated to the lovely walkin_siesta, who helped me through the terrible process of writing smut (and forced me to finish it) ;3

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( eight and a half. )

Title: Bug
Chapter: 9/10
Rating: R (subject to change)
Genre: AU, romance
Warnings: sexual content
Bands/Pairings: Reita/Ruki, Ruki/Aoi (one-sided), Uruha/Aoi [Gazette]
Disclaimers: standard disclaimers apply, unfortunately.
Summary: Ruki is a man of many obsessions. After a fateful meeting with a stranger in a club, a series of events shows him that one obsession could destroy him - while another just might save him... (Ruki POV)
Word Count: 2,416/31,970 (chapter/total)
Notes: a short, but fairly crucial chapter. you may have noticed I have not upped the rating to NC-17. explanation follows.

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( nine )

Title: Bug
Chapter: 8/10
Rating: R (subject to change)
Genre: AU, romance
Warnings: sexual content
Bands/Pairings: Reita/Ruki, Ruki/Aoi (one-sided), Uruha/Aoi [Gazette]
Disclaimers: standard disclaimers apply, unfortunately.
Summary: Ruki is a man of many obsessions. After a fateful meeting with a stranger in a club, a series of events shows him that one obsession could destroy him - while another just might save him... (Ruki POV)
Word Count: 3,167/29,554 (chapter/total)
Notes: yay :D

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( eight. )

Title: Bug
Chapter: 7/10
Rating: R (subject to change)
Genre: AU, romance
Warnings: sexual content
Bands/Pairings: Reita/Ruki, Ruki/Aoi (one-sided?) [Gazette]
Disclaimers: standard disclaimers apply, unfortunately.
Summary: Ruki is a man of many obsessions. After a fateful meeting with a stranger in a club, a series of events shows him that one obsession could destroy him - while another just might save him... (Ruki POV)
Word Count: 2,699/26,387 (chapter/total)
Notes: okay, so two updates in a week is pretty good, right?

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( seven. )

Title: Bug
Chapter: 6/10
Rating: R (subject to change)
Genre: AU, romance
Warnings: sexual content
Bands/Pairings: Reita/Ruki, Ruki/Aoi (one-sided?) [Gazette]
Disclaimers: standard disclaimers apply, unfortunately.
Summary: Ruki is a man of many obsessions. After a fateful meeting with a stranger in a club, a series of events shows him that one obsession could destroy him - while another just might save him... (Ruki POV)
Word Count: 3,818/23,688 (chapter/total)
Notes: drama and woe.

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( six. )

Title: Bug
Chapter: 5/10
Rating: R (subject to change)
Genre: AU, romance
Warnings: sexual content
Bands/Pairings: Reita/Ruki, Ruki/Aoi (one-sided?) [Gazette]
Disclaimers: standard disclaimers apply, unfortunately.
Summary: Ruki is a man of many obsessions. After a fateful meeting with a stranger in a club, a series of events shows him that one obsession could destroy him - while another just might save him... (Ruki POV)
Word Count: 3,033/19,840 (chapter/total)
Notes: been a while. longer explanation at end of chapter.

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( five. )

I saw a bunch of people doing this meme, so I thought I'd give it a try.

The meme:
1. Pick a character, pairing, or fandom you like.
2. Turn on your music player and put it on random/shuffle.
3. Write a drabble related to each song that plays. You only have the time frame of the song to finish the drabble; you start when the song starts, and stop when it's over. No lingering afterwards!
4. Do ten of these, then post them.

Title: no title
Chapter: ten drabbles
Rating: PG to hard R
Genre: tiny bit of romance, mostly angst
Warnings: my brand of grammar
Bands/Pairings: Reita/Ruki (of course, who else would I pick?)
Disclaimers: standard disclaimers apply, unfortunately.
Summary: various.


( beware )

to be honest, most of the drabbles have almost nothing to do with the actual songs. they're just based off what the song makes me think of... if you know what the songs are about, they might make a tiny bit more sense. but I'm doubting that anything my brain craps out these days makes much sense anyway.

I'm hoping this gets all the angst bugs out of me... lately, it's been hard to write anything else. oh, I did cheat a little and skip one song - Anarchyburger, by The Vandals... I mean, come on... >___>

my personal favorite is 7. and 3... however did I manage to incorporate a Peaches song into a set of angsty drabbles? the world may never know. and since it's been pointed out that these, read in a certain order, could stand as one fic, I think the order would be thus: 1, 2, 4, 5, 3, 8, 7, 9, 6, 10.

Title: Ritual
Chapter: Oneshot
Rating: PG-13
Genre: romance?
Warnings: vagueness
Bands/Pairings: Reita/Ruki (my choice of pairing; could be any)
Disclaimers: standard disclaimers apply, unfortunately.
Summary: Sometimes, you're just not sure about him.
Word Count: 370 (omg drabble-esque)
Notes: completely inspired by Eve 6's "Jet Pack" (lyrics) which is one of my favorite songs just about ever. I've been wanting to write this for some time but it never really came along until just now.

( Ritual )